will she come?

all evening he waited
anxiously eyeing the clock
retracing his steps
over and over
counting the minutes
until her arrival

kneeling before a crackling fire
adding another log
he rose to check again
his preparations for tonight

the thick sheepskin rug
lay lovingly spread before the flames
waiting for her

the book
the one she longed after
in that tiny shop downtown
rested on the warm stone hearth
waiting for her

his hand
stopped a moment
over his heart
and lovingly fingered
the prize there
hidden away in his pocket
where it lay
waiting for her

taking the ring
from its secret place
he gazed at it
mesmerized by its shine
by what it stood for
soon he smiled and
softly slipped it back
to its repose
where it lay
waiting for her

seating himself back on the chair
he resumed his vigil
over the fire
over the wine
over the clock
over himself

and he sat
quiet and lost in thought
waiting for her

AWAK...

awak!
sy syg awk....
awak!
sy rindu awk...
awak!
sy cinta awk...

AWAK!!!!!!!
jgn tinggal sy..
plz...
jgn lg..

P/S: Rse2 dye dengar ta? =)

ITs BeEn A wHilE!

good morning diary!
its been a while since my last post...
i can't sleep to nite..
huh!feeling kinda down a lil bit...
but im still curious bout those feeling...
GOD!!! HeLP ME!
PLEASE....
Help me......

make you smile again!

do you remember?
our first kiss..
it seem so lame to me but i don't care..
you were wearing pink and me black..
don't know if you remember that but i don't care...
i don't care..

hey please my dear..
let me be a part of your life again..
and maybe later we could be forever...forever..
i make you cried all night..
i'm sorry for being to harsh to you..
and now... please let me...
please let me...
make you smile again...

now years had past..
i guess i live a happy life...
drink,smoke and eat was all fine..
but girl there's only one thing..
this one thing that i fear the most..
is a thought of...
thought about you...

hey please my dear..
let me be a part of your life again..
and maybe later we could be forever...forever..
i make you cried all night..
i'm sorry for being to harsh to you..
and now... please let me...
please let me...
make you smile again...

song and lyric by: me
written on:25th April 2010 07:47
dedicated to: her

p/s: Don't worry dear...i'll never stop thinking about you..

Seeking..

4 years had past..
but im still finding what im missing in my life..
something that i thought i don't need it anymore...
something called LOVE...
i don't know if i ever had it before..
but one thing for sure...i've lost it all..
yes...
i did managed to find it...
but sincerely...
i never found it in girls i dated...(not after her)
still im trying...
never look back..
thats what i taught to myself..
but!
i forgot to tell myself this...
to give up and to move forward...
i look back...
rewind all the memories...
then i saw her...
she was happy back there..
with a boy..(me)
but one day she cried..
why?
that boy left her..
for what reason?
i don't know..(he's scared coz he love her so much)
will he come back?
no...she said..(yes!he said)
the YES...
she didn't heard it..
but he did..
the YES...
makes me wonder if i could find her..
for what?
to be with her..
to love her..
to take care of her...
to never leave her again..
to marry her...
will that happen....?

TO BE CONTINUE...

september!

September 25th!

my first sight of the earth is today..
i cried a lot...
there're 4 to 5 people around me...
wearing all white...
eerie isn't it?haha..
they are actually nurses an doctor..
then i heard a sound..
a very beautiful sound that make me stop crying..
guess what?
its "azan"..
my dad did that..=)
he held me tight...and handed me to a nice gourgeous women..
she was smiling when she held me..
then my dad said "this is umi"..
the name that i used to call my mom until today..=)
thanks mom for bringing me to this wonderfull world..
i love you!

september 16th the 16th!

im 16 now..
but yet dont know whats love is..
accept for my parents and friends..=)
this is where my love story begin..
my first love..
she came into my life with a smile..
a was a stupid damn ass back there..
dont really know how to treat girl..
hurt her over and over again...
until...
she left..
but hey...its okay..
at least she taught me something..
LOVE..
that i kept it sealed in my heart..
=)

4 years later!

life was fine...=) (dont trust me!im lying!)
but theres something missing..
coulnt really find it..
until i saw a movie..
really touched by the story..
reminds me of my past time with her...
realized that im lost..
i should find the way back..
back to her..
how??
find out more later...=)

about her...

she...
she have an eyes of the blue ocean..
lips of an angel..
smile of the rising sun..
and she most importantly...
she have my heart...

she make me smile like no others...
why?
coz i'm in love...hehe..
she make me cried sometime..(lame..haha)
why?
coz i want to...she didnt forced me..=)
she kept me waiting before...
why?
coz i used to be a jerk..
she make me laugh when she's mad..
why?
coz i love to see her angry face..
she....
she...
she..
she.

she love me..
why?
coz we're meant for each other..
amin...
=)

p/s:i love you...forever and today..

Selamanya ku milikmu...=)

malam...
melabuhkan tirainya...
kau pun berlalu tanpaku sedari..
dan siangku...
hilang entah kemana...
ku hilang arah tanpamu..di sisi...
selamanya ku milikmu...

sayang...
aku tak ke mana...
ku dekat dalam hati mu itu...
ku gengam erat...
jari jemarimu...
agar kau takkan pergi jauh...
selamanya kau miliku...

hari hari yang berlalu..
ku semakin keliru...
setiap nafas ku terasa...
sakit sendiri...
bila rasa..
hanya ada untukmu...
ini satu pintaku...
biar jadi yang terakhir...

p/s:ni lagu yg aku ngn dye tulis...all about us...sape dye??nanti aq gtaw yea...hehe...=)

This is my SEPTEMBER !

POYO tak TITLE ni??haha...

mmg poyo...

tapi bulan ni r bulan paling bmakne dlam hdup aq...

ahhhh...pe aq kesah...bkan aq kcau org pn...

emmm...pe nak tlis ni... (-.-'

haa.. aq start ngn dri aq dlu r...

name aq....firdaus...umo da 20...

blaja lg...aq ni ta byk ckap...tp kuat merepek r...

tp aq merepek dgn org yg aq knal je...yg tak brape nak knal tu ssh skit...hehe..

emmm...nak tlis lg ke???

emmm pasal ap aq create blog ni??

sbab byak yg jadi dlam bulan ni...

sooooo aq nak tulis r...haha

ad lg stu sbab...tp len kali r aq gtaw...hehe

k la gtg...borink gle mlm ni...hmmm